Recession

It is Friday morning and it is really cold here in Philly. I come
down from my bedroom after a quick shower, with my sneakers in my hand
And two pair of socks on. Yea it is that cold. My hands an feet are
cold all of the time and I feel like an 80 years old lady who just is
never warm enough. I keep planning on getting to th doc as my 3
little toes on my left foot go numb from time to time. For some
reason I always feel busy. I spend a few days per week job hunting
and have come up with a fist full of nothing. I am on monster,
carrerbuilder, simplyhired, hcareers, and my linkedin account is on
hyperdrive to no avail. Certain days it is tough to stay positive
especially the days when you get interviewed by some knucklehead who
isn't as qualified as you and you know you are no getting the job.
Another position where they offer 35k like a swift kick to the balls,
and say if you want to make more money you have to hustle. Sooner or
later I am gonna take that kick to the balls and be happy with it.
That time isn't now, yet it gets closer and closer. I can see the leg
pulling back ready to release. I wonder how it will feel. You know,
the day when I let someone kick me in the balls and I just stand there
and grin and bear it. It is funny to say it or to write it, it will
be just really fucking hard to do it. To just take it, swallow my
pride and take it.

Positive thinking = positive reward. It is another great day that
I get to spend more time with the beans than I could ever imagine.
Another cold day in paradise. I will check my email fervantly and
hope one with the silver lining comes in.

Enjoy your day! I know I will!

I have to get my hands in my pockets they are freezing!

The gift and the curse

Home alone

Wifey was at a baby shower about an hour away from ou home yesterday.
So that is two hours travel and too many hours doing shower stuff. It
is freezing outside and we stayed in all day yeterday, that is what is
called a recipe for dissaster. The Beans wore me out. Being with her
or I would assume any little one isn't so bad when you can go outside
and run around. Stuck inside for the better part of last week and all
day Sunday really put us both at wits end. She now does this 'baby
kitty' thing that drives me nutso. It is really cute from time to
time, yet for a few hours it will make you want to hit the bottle.
She crawls around meowing and talking in a baby voice and calls me
daddy kitty. Add to that Santa brought a bitty baby with him this
year, so in theory I have to take care of the Beans and the bitty baby
whenever baby kitty decides that bitty baby needs anything.
Sweeeeeet! We dressed undressed feed changed diapers changed onesies
you name it we did it and did it again. Playoff football no sir -
dress up and playing with the dollhouse. That is just how I roll
people you have to have priorities in order! It was a long day, and
thank gosh I cherish every minute of it. And thank goodness that
wifey understands and let's me detox from the baby kitty when she gets
home.

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Aaaaaand....

It's been a long time and I shouldn't have left you here alone for so
long. Yes, yes. I know you have heard it all before - this is not the
first and certainly won't be the last time that I leave you. Life
happens sometimes, not enough hours in the day, not enough thoughts in
my head. It is not you it's me. We didn't break up, we just took a
break. I know I am unemployed and I know I have time.... But
honestly I am busy playing play dough, doing stickers, playing with my
doll house, and being a stay at home dad. Time goes by quickly and I
have really been cherishing being laid off and watching my daughter
grow. Precious. Hopefully I am back for now, but hope you are ready
for some beans stories because that is pretty much all I have for now
- well, that and a pathetic job search. Tally ho.

Happy Friday - Lets go birds.

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